This World

There's tarnish on my Golden Rule
And I wanna jump from this ship of fools
Show me a place where hope is young
And a people who are not afraid to love

This world has nothing for me, and this world has everything
All that I could want and nothing that I need

This world is making me drunk on the spirits of fear
So when You say, "Who will go?" I am nowhere near

But the least of these look like criminals to me
so I leave Christ on the street

This world has held my hand and has led me into intolerance
So now I'm breaking up, I'm waking up, I'm making up for lost time

This world has nothing for me and this world has everything
All that I could want and nothing that I need

~written by Aaron Tate of Caedmon's Call

Change

Change. Love it or hate it, it's coming. My mind has been going a million miles an hour ever since we decided on this whole moving thing. I'm so excited to be close to Blake's family (who I'm more and more thinking of as my own) but also hesitant to get too worked up. Circumstances in the past have created a strained relationship, at best, with many of his family members. And as much as I want to love them and be close to them and for everything to be warm and cozy, I'm not really sure that's what they want--from me. Maybe they want me to just stay out of the way and not cause trouble. I know that no matter how much I want to be close to them, I can't force them to want to know me or to love me back. I just love loving, but I've never met a group of people who make it so hard. So, whoever's reading, if anyone is, say a prayer for us as we make this huge transition in our lives.