Change

Change. Love it or hate it, it's coming. My mind has been going a million miles an hour ever since we decided on this whole moving thing. I'm so excited to be close to Blake's family (who I'm more and more thinking of as my own) but also hesitant to get too worked up. Circumstances in the past have created a strained relationship, at best, with many of his family members. And as much as I want to love them and be close to them and for everything to be warm and cozy, I'm not really sure that's what they want--from me. Maybe they want me to just stay out of the way and not cause trouble. I know that no matter how much I want to be close to them, I can't force them to want to know me or to love me back. I just love loving, but I've never met a group of people who make it so hard. So, whoever's reading, if anyone is, say a prayer for us as we make this huge transition in our lives.