This Is A Picture Blog

27 weeks along!! We have decided (sort of) on a name... Captain Judah Jackson, but we will call him Judah. At least that's our "deal"... I am not crazy about Captain, but Husband's not budging & I did promise to submit to Him in all things, as unto the Lord, sooo... There we have it.

More baby pictures!! Yay!!

My belly is just growing so darn fast... I love my little man! Today I was listening to music and singing along, and he started dancing in my belly! After the song was over I leaned back and watched him kick. Every time he moved I would exclaim, "Wow!" or "That was a big one!!" or "Good job!" and he would pause, and do it again! He stopped for a minute and I was quiet, then I said "Do you want to kick again for Mommy?" and he did!! He is so smart :).

My Bump, my Bump, my Lovely Baby Bump

So far I haven't done a completely stellar job of keeping this blog updated. I have trouble getting motivated because I don't think anyone even reads this. I think, I already know what's going on with me and I don't really need to type it all out for myself to read. Although, as I write those very words, my next thought is, "Well it would still be good to process things instead of letting them get all jumbled up in your head!" Oh self, how right you are.

An update: Judah has been kicking alot lately! Sometimes it seems like he's moving nonstop all day long! Other days I don't feel that much movement. It's always so exciting when he does the big kicks, or when it feels like he's rolling around in my belly. He seems so big and strong in there!

Here is a recent picture of a growing belly with a growing baby inside. :)

 I had been cleaning and didn't have on my wedding rings. Oops!

Blessed By Baby!!!!!

I'm pregnant! And thrilled. :) Here are my first "real" baby bump pictures... I've taken a few but now you can actually tell there's a bump! I can't wait til I feel him/her kicking around, that should happen within the next few weeks. :) :) :)


4 months along...



I just can't wait til s/he comes out so I can hug and kiss and cuddle! We have a boy name picked out--sort of. Blake likes Captain and I like Judah. I prefer Judah Blake Jackson, but Blake seems stuck on Captain so it might end up being Captain Judah Jackson. We haven't really thought of any girls' names because I just KNOW it's a boy! It just is.

Got to go, Mom J is here for lunch.

Thankful

Life is hard lately, so, to cheer myself up, I'm going to make a list of things that I'm thankful for:

1.) I'm thankful that God forgives me and loves me in spite of how ugly and wretched I truly am.

2.) I'm thankful for my husband, Blake. He inspires me to live and love bigger. His selfless love for me reminds me of Christ, and he truly does 'give himself up for me' on a daily basis. I do not deserve him, but I am so glad I have him anyway!

3.) I'm actually surprisingly thankful that I'm not pregnant yet. I'm really beginning to see the importance of God's timing and remembering that He is sovereign and ever so much wiser than me. I am thankful that God doesn't always give us exactly what we want, when we want it; instead, He gives us exactly what we need, exactly when we need it.

4.) I'm thankful for my family. They give me the comfort of knowing that there are actually people in this world who get me, who I don't have to explain so much to.

5.) I am thankful that I have a place to live, that I don't go hungry any day of the week, that I have lots of great clothes and shoes and makeup that make me look and feel good, and that I can take a shower anytime I want, and that I have a car to drive and my own cell phone and pretty much lack nothing. Gosh, I am so lucky.

6.) I am thankful that I am in Florida and it is warm in November and I never have to be cold again! Well you never know exactly, but I am glad that, for now, I'm very comfortable and not cold.

7.) I'm thankful that I have a bed to sleep on and a hot and sexy lover to go cuddle with.


So I think I will go cuddle... :)

This World

There's tarnish on my Golden Rule
And I wanna jump from this ship of fools
Show me a place where hope is young
And a people who are not afraid to love

This world has nothing for me, and this world has everything
All that I could want and nothing that I need

This world is making me drunk on the spirits of fear
So when You say, "Who will go?" I am nowhere near

But the least of these look like criminals to me
so I leave Christ on the street

This world has held my hand and has led me into intolerance
So now I'm breaking up, I'm waking up, I'm making up for lost time

This world has nothing for me and this world has everything
All that I could want and nothing that I need

~written by Aaron Tate of Caedmon's Call

Change

Change. Love it or hate it, it's coming. My mind has been going a million miles an hour ever since we decided on this whole moving thing. I'm so excited to be close to Blake's family (who I'm more and more thinking of as my own) but also hesitant to get too worked up. Circumstances in the past have created a strained relationship, at best, with many of his family members. And as much as I want to love them and be close to them and for everything to be warm and cozy, I'm not really sure that's what they want--from me. Maybe they want me to just stay out of the way and not cause trouble. I know that no matter how much I want to be close to them, I can't force them to want to know me or to love me back. I just love loving, but I've never met a group of people who make it so hard. So, whoever's reading, if anyone is, say a prayer for us as we make this huge transition in our lives.